i thought tumblr was triggering so if i stayed away it’d help.

and it did.

for a little while.

now things have started to come back, and last night i was the closest to suicide i’ve ever been.

i need help.

i need change.

tinywristsandankles:

Gimme

perrfeccttt.

(via bambi-darling)

I was doing so fucking good. Almost a month now and I was actually starting to feel confident about my body.. Then I got my period and suddenly I’m the biggest fuck around here. This sucks. 

unpredictableprediction:

No bullshit. No drama. No backstabbing. Just straight up real. Someone who’ll go on adventures & experience new things with me. Someone who is willing to go through up & downs and never leaves when things gets worse. Someone who’ll actually take their time & effort to be part of my life. I like these kind of people.

just lost two people who basically betrayed me today.. but this past week, ive made alot of new friends. (:

(Source: rayrayrifle, via bambi-darling)

i was at dance camp, and my dance teacher’s best friend talked to us about eating disorders. hers started at 14 and shes 47 and still suffering from it. i didnt think it would hit me so hard.. but it did. i want to love myself. everything she said applied to me. i feel like noone cares. that im an awful human being. i hate myself. i eat to feel better. once i start i cant stop. i need help, but id never admit it. 

she said, ” you are the most important person in your life. and noone should convince you otherwise.” i really thought this applied to me with what ive been going through with myself lately. and i thought id share it with all of you. (:

and i was getting better.

so while ive been gone, i ended it with my bf. and now i have this new guy that likes me and is really cute and sweet. (:

also, im starting to like my body. i still want to loose weight though, but my stomach is starting to look nice. 

my only problem is i want my boobs to be smaller… does anyone know anything i can dooo for this?

why is this not me?!

(via skinnyminnytobe)

And I’m sitting here eating cheesesticks like a fatass watching the girls with perfect bodies. Fuck.